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Jun. 22nd, 2007
07:16 pm - Rough Times
So, this was definitely a big week for me as far as things happening. My mom finally got married after we waited in the courthouse for an hour. There was a courtcase going on, so we had to wait. It lasted about 8 minutes if not less, but the bright spot was that she asked me to be her witness. I felt very priviledged to be the one who got to sign my name. A person from Dennis's side of the family asked me if I shedded tears...I didn't because I had spent the entire day driving, and life has just been very exhausting. However, I did smile as I saw my mom shaking with joy. I am happy for her.
Later that night I ended up throwing up which was awful because I had been doing so well. Most people who know me know I struggled with throwing up a lot in the previous years. I survived it alright, and I feel much better today. The only thing that keeps me going crazy is that I have nasty headaches daily, I think I'm just under too much stress.
This is between Josh with his stomach problems that are becoming increasingly worse. He's in so much pain all the time. I feel so helpless. I don't know how many times I thought he might have to be taken to an emergency room.
Did I talk about my car? I got hit by a car with my car a bit ago. The guy was totally not paying attention. This was before I even had made the first payment. I thought that was ridiculous. The car is okay it just got rear-ended. I just have a scratch by the trunk so it is not as bad as it could be. Then today I was driving home from work and a tire blew out from a car a few cars ahead of me, I had to slam on my breaks in the fast lane. Thank the stars no one got injured in that mess.
Another bright spot is that my cat is neutered. I am so grateful for that, because there was a scare that he may not be. I found out today that he is and I cannot tell you how relieved I am to hear that. Now all I need is for him to stop biting. Awww he's grooming Smuckers right now!! It's cute.
I found out today from Josh's mom that the dresses can be taken into the alterations person, so things just seem to be becoming more real that Josh and I will be getting married. I found out about the premarital survey Josh and I have to take soon too. Oww my head, okay I am going to go. It's unbearably hot.
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hotJun. 1st, 2007
09:41 pm - Friends and Family Blues
One thing I have definitely noticed is how much friends have changed over the years. I did not think that things would be this way. One issue I have is when people do not call me back, then I feel like I don't matter to that person, and that angers me. I think of myself as a good friend, and it is irritating when people don't take the time to check in with me. Call it selfish if you want, but a lot of times I feel like I give friends more then I get back. It would be nice if they felt the same way. Not all of my friends are like that, but I sure don't feel like I am getting support when I need it the most.
As always my family is a big issue with me too. I won't go into the details because I could write forever. It always seems to get me feeling down, which I have for a while now. I think part of it is because of my cats not being with me, among other things. It seems like there is too much at once.
I also feel that I can't get anything done for the wedding. People are not as willing as I thought they would be. There is so much that needs to be done, and it looks like I will have to do it myself. I really feel alone right now, and not supported by others. I'm not sure when things will perk up, and don't tell me to keep my chin up because you have no idea what is going on. It would be nice if people would ask...you can't force anyone to change they need to do it for themself...that's hard for me to accept
depressedApr. 2nd, 2007
09:23 pm - Sick and Graduation
Hey everyone!!
I am battling a sore throat so if my spelling or thoughts are a little off that's why. I really don't understand, but this year I have been sick all the time. I worry because I had a viral infection in my throat twice last year. It's very painful, and there is nothing the doctors can give you for it. I hate when they say, I don't have anything to help with the pain, you have to wait for it to go away...ouch.
I am wondering if graduation will ever get here. I am in my last month of school, and definitly my last leg of careing about assignments. I just want to be done with all the projects. I mean don't get me wrong, the social work girls are great, but the projects are what I am having a hard time dealing with. I just remembered today while taking a bath to soothe my achy muscles that I am going to miss the social work girls so much!! Spending 2 years with the same people really gives you a chance to get to know them. It makes me really sad to think about not seeing them every tuesday and thursday...
However, I have decided that I would really like to move somewhere new, like a different state. I really feel that I am not cut out for winter, and I am ready for a new state. Josh tells me to slow down, it would be a few years before we would be able to move anyway. On a happy side note, this month makes it 13 months before Josh and I will finally be married. I cannot wait for it, I feel like I have been waiting forever, but seeing the relationship that Josh and I have I know it will be forever!!
sickNov. 27th, 2006
09:10 pm - Untitled
I haven't talked for a long time. That's because not much has happened. I am excited that my wedding dress should be back in sometime in the middle of December, I hope it is right this time.
Josh bought me a beautiful band for our 4 years on the 21st. The band has three rows of diamonds which makes for 48 diamonds total on the band. That's not including my engagement ring. I'm excited about wearing it. I want to be husband and wife right now!! But I can wait for it.
School is going well right now...well it's boring, but it's alright at the same time if that makes sense. May can't come soon enough for me. I just want to graduate, and be done with college. I want a break...lol, but I also don't want to start working right away either.
I'm going to watch American Wedding, so I'll chat later!!
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peacefulSep. 21st, 2006
03:26 pm - Anger
Hi people!
I just wanted to do some venting on here. I was extremely upset today when I went in formy advisor appointment. I found out that I was 1 credit short of graduating. To those who are unaware of my situation. I had thought this several times last year, and went over it with my advisor. She assured me that I would have enough credits, and stated I would be more credits over. Unfortunatly, that was not that case, and I ended up crying and becoming very upset. This is my senior year of college, and this is the most stressful time for me. I did not want to hear something like that. So now, I have extra work cut out for me that I had not anticipated. If anyone has words of encouragement, please let me know. I'm in a rough shape right now.....thanks.
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angrySep. 14th, 2006
11:33 am - Getting into the Groove
Hey peeps!!
Here are some more updates about me. I am enjoying my senior field placement with the social work program. I am learning a lot, though I am stressed with everything going on. It's sort of emotionally draining on a person. However, I really love where I am.
I was stressed before about the worry about the internet and cable. We recieved our internet materials, so now all we have to go is hook it up. I hope that is not too difficult to do. The internet will make class work get done a lot sooner, so I won't have to go to the school and work on theirs. Our cable we got, and that makes Josh happy.
Overall I am learning how to get into the swing of things for the senior year. Yay!!
mellowSep. 7th, 2006
03:06 pm - Busy, Busy, Busy
Classes started this week, so I have been busy just trying to get settled in with everything that needs to get done. I found myself to be very stressed out with all the stuff that needs to get done. I think that the classes shouldn't be so bad once I can get a handle on everything.
Our furniture hasn't arrived yet, and my back is getting sore from sitting on the chair all the time. I can't wait for it to come, so hopefully it will come next week. Josh and I are also waiting for internet and cable to be hooked up. I am not sure how much longer it will be for that to happen. However, our apartment is nice, and mostly quiet.
Overall, I am just stressed....I guess that sums things up...
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stressedAug. 30th, 2006
10:33 am - Moving Day Arrives Tomorrow
So....some things happened since I lasted posted in here.
Josh and I got furniture, tho it does not arrive for 2-3 wks. We got a black leather couch, a coffee table, 2 end tables, and 2 lamps for the low, low, low price of $550. Yes!! We are very excited. I can't wait for it to come to our apartment.
Also, we finally recieved our phones on Monday. I am still trying to figure out how to use it, but if someone wants the number just leave me a message. It's a cute bluetooth v3 razor.
Josh and I are moving into our apartment tomorrow, and that's going to be a busy day. We had some problems with the uhaul, we had someone to drive the truck cuz we just got an attach the back one, but now they need to go to a funeral, so we have been scrambling around trying to find someone else. Our only option might be to just upgrade, but Josh and I are running low on money.
Oh, one other quick note. I have a job interview for a social work type job, it's not until Sept 6th, so wish me luck.
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anxiousAug. 20th, 2006
10:11 pm - Busy Life
Okay, so here are some more updates about my life for anyone who is curious to see.
Josh went to the emergency room on friday and I was so worried. I was at work, and his mom left me a message on my phone saying that's where she took him and to call her when I was done. I was freaking out, I almost had to pull the car over. I mean who leaves a message like that? So, Josh has a gastro infection and it was really bad so they gave him pills, an iv, and he was dehydrated so they fixed that too. He is doing better, but today he was experiencing some sharp pains....he has a doctor visit this week. I hope they can help him.
I am also getting a new cell phone sometime by the end of the month. It's really cool, cuz it is the blue razor. I think I will like it a lot, but my number will change...I'll let people know when I know if they want to know.
I went looking at some bridal shops the other day in Marshfield and I found the perfect tiara for my wedding day. I am not sure if it will go with the dress or not, but I am going to check the bridal shop where my dress was ordered so I can see. I mean I can have a little glitz especially when I am not going to be wearing a veil. I decided they were pointless.
And Kari....I am so sorry about your b-day. I really wish I could've been there, but Josh was so ill. I've never ever seen him like that, and we have been together for almost 4 years now...Anyway we need to do something before I leave Wausau, but I will give you a call when I know more about availability.
stressedAug. 9th, 2006
08:43 pm - Stress
Hey all!!
KariKins we definitely need to do something before I leave...and I know for a fact someone's birthday is coming up this month!! What sort of plans do you have for it?
I can't believe summer is almost over. It went by so fast.
I feel kinda stressed about wedding photography. I have been looking at the price list for many companies, and it seems $1000 is the cheapest. I really wasn't planning to spend that much so I'm a little bummed about that.
On a higher note, unexpectedly, Josh and I have a 1 bedroom apartment together that is close to campus. It has a heart shaped pool outside, and indoor pool, a sauna, a pool table, and a fitness center that residents may use. I was not planning on living off campus this year, but it works out better, because it will be cheaper. All the penalty was was that I would forfeit my deposit, I can live with that...
worriedAug. 3rd, 2006
07:20 pm - Fair
Today I went to the fair with Josh, and tonight I am going with Linds to visit the beer tent, since this is my first of age time to go in. Overall it was a pretty nice day to go, despite all the hot weather. I even bought some purple sunglasses that I have been looking for since my old ones broke. I bought Starship for $5 and that was a good deal. I love Nothing's gonna stop us now...I could listen to it all day. Anyway...not much else exciting has happened to me. I got some short shifts at work so that's exciting. I need to stop procrastinating and send out my application for a new job. Okay I need to stop jabbering now...
pleasedJul. 30th, 2006
11:52 pm - Achy
Today I had to work 10-6pm, and I have never been so tired in my life. When I was at work, I strained my back, so now it hurts to bend. I took a bubble bath, but I don't think it did much. Josh was nice to give me a back, knee, and foot massage, because I was in so much pain.
I am going to go crazy thinking about our dinner for our wedding. Our original thought was to keep it small and intimate...but even that is more people then we realize. I decided to not think about it anymore until next May. I should be more calm by then. Mother-in Law...definite problems, but I am sure I am not alone in this.
Josh got me hooked on watching 24, its very suspensful. We just finished up the 3rd season. I can't wait for the next one. Hopefully, it doesn't go off the air like other seasons I liked, like dark angel and tru calling.
Josh and I are going to Green Bay tommorrow to look for jobs this year. I hope we get some good ones....ok I can be finished rambling now.
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drainedJul. 28th, 2006
12:00 pm - Wedding Photography
I can't believe how much everything has to be booked ahead, and all these high prices!! I'm looking for photographers right now, so I can book one. It's amazing how some things are not booked at all, while others are already filled up! I really need to get going on some of this, or it will be hard to do later....
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